Devotional - I can’t believe this happens over and over

READ TIME: 2.5 minutes

Dear readers,

This week, jealousy got the better of me. It happened when I sat in my car on my way to my part-time job. (If you didn't know, I freelance and have a day job).

Ever since I started walking the road of solopreneurship, I have been searching for God's guidance in my business. And I enjoy His guidance; I hear from God in His way and timing, but something began to gnaw at me.

Why do others get such clear directions, and I don't?

I let the thought flow instead of suppressing it—which I normally do. With great annoyance, I muted the podcast I was listening to and started praying.

It was an honest prayer coming from a dissatisfied heart.

I told God about Celine on my podcast, who got the flamingo sign she asked for.

I told Him about my mastermind friends who had gotten words for each other but not for me.

I told Him about the seemingly never-ending journey of seeking full clarity for my entrepreneurial endeavors.

I couldn't believe this was happening again—that I was begging God to speak to me, too. To give me a sign. To be clear.

That was it.
That was my prayer.
I fixed my sunglasses—remember, I was driving, and the sun shone into my car and remained quiet, giving God room to speak. 

In just a few minutes, He laid out how He had spoken many times and how that had helped not only me but others as well.

For example:
When I questioned whether God wanted me to continue writing this newsletter, the subscribers bumped up tremendously—so much so that I needed a paid subscription to still get these emails to you 🙂.

God also showed me how the way I prayed a full week for Born to Fly before my daughter was born has inspired many. I share that way of praying with others.

I swallowed.
I realized I had forgotten all the guidance that He'd already given.
I thought the grass was greener on the other side, while God had watered mine perfectly.

When I prayed my prayer, I knew jealousy had entered into my heart. I confessed it to God, asking Him to open my eyes and remove my wrong response. 

I also declared that God cares as much for me as He cares for anyone else. 

That response has been a huge step up for me. Before, I would battle the idea that God couldn't care less for me, and that what I do is insignificant.

Now I know better.
And I believe it, too.

By telling you this story, I hope I give you encouragement when you, too, slip into insecurity, or jealousy, or any other deteriorating state of mind.

God gives you direction. The Source Who does lives right inside us.
We just have to pay attention. Sometimes, it requires a raw prayer, but God can handle that. He'd rather have us come to Him than not come to Him at all. 

So, ask for a sign like Celine and expect to see it.
Fast for a day and search Him more.
Pray one week for specifically one matter, and pay attention to His answer.

He answers.
Mostly about something that required heart work, which we weren't looking for.
Yet... 🙂

Dear teader, don't hesitate to share your story with me. It's empowering to me the way this is to you (I hope).

Blessings,
Jane
Founder Born to Fly

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